unless i can feel it too

i think i have come to some sort of realization. i am hoping at least. it is about time!
the chaos and confusion- the fear of failure and embarrassment and ultimately death-i just have to remember it is there to keep life exciting. without danger, risk, or the feeling of being terrified; life would suck! it would being boring and tedious and dull. so, the next time i go to take on something new and i feel unsure and sweaty and red and shaky, i am going to try and think of that situation as something much like a roller coaster and watching a scary movie-its all in good fun! it always feels so much better when you are scared shitless first then relieved as hell to be alive.

epiphany!
e·iph·a·ny (ĭ-pĭf'ə-nē
n. pl. e·iph·a·nies

1. Epiphany
1. A Christian feast celebrating the manifestation of the divine nature of Jesus to the Gentiles as represented by the Magi.
2. January 6, on which this feast is traditionally observed.
3. A sudden manifestation of the essence or meaning of something.
4. A comprehension or perception of reality by means of a sudden intuitive realization: "I experienced an epiphany, a spiritual flash that would change the way I viewed myself" (Frank Maier).